Qubool hai

Ishra Rehman

“Beta, main arnaaz ki maa hu, haan, tum mujhe janti nahi, par main tumhe meri khud ki beti ki tarha kakhungi, tumhe humesha khush rakhne ki khoshish karenge” the women who is di’s fia- ex fiancées mom said

I just stood there frozen, trying to process what was happening. suddenly Trisha took my hand and dragged me to the balcony, I looked back and saw Nani about to stop her but papa said something which made her stop

"Myra, I am not going to tell you whether to marry him or not, since this is your life decision not someone else’s, doesn’t matter what is happening, yes everyone’s life is going to be effect from what decision you make but the person whose life will be most affected is yours and arnaaz’s. but I am going to tell you to calm down right now and think, and then tell them your answer, stay here for some time and calm down, I will go inside and wait with the others" I stared at her and hugged her she hugged back and rubbed my back

“ I don’t know Trisha, I don’t know what to do. This is the first time I saw mumma and papa not smiling, the first time I saw tension in paps eyes and the first time I saw tears in mumma’s eyes. I feel so suffocated, so..so lost” she said and she pulled away smiling at me

“Arey Budho whatever decision you make I will be with you through every step” she cupped my cheek and reassured me “now I will go okay” she hugged me one last time and walked away to give me some one

The cold wind hit my face and I closed my eyes letting tears slip from my eyes, it was almost time for magreeb, the cold wind somehow calmed me down and I relaxed suddenly a voice came from behind, it was dadi

"Myra you will marry Ishaan, don't you love your papa, what will happen to him if this family's reputation is ruined, and if this marriage is broken then your papa's business will also be ruined, your worthless anyways so try to do something that you can actually do to make this family more successful if you don't marry him it will be your fault if anything happens to your papa" she said to me

My family was my everything, the mere thought of happening something to papa shattered me

Yes my life will be affected the most as Trisha said and yes he is quite intimidating but what if we can make the marriage work.

I fell in deep thought dadi was still saying stuff but I wasn’t listening to anything I was just in thought for what would be the right decision

Aunty did say she will treat me like her own daughter

Ya Allah please main Jo fesla lene wali hu wo please achi ho. sab kuch theek rakhna, kuch bura mat hone Dena

I went inside after a moment dadi following right behind me and I gulped looking at everyone and said “I will”

Papa came up to me cupping my cheek before saying “ishu whatever your dadi told you, forget it, do what you want, if you don’t want to marry him you don’t have to”

I smiled at papa giving him one the best smiles I could form at that moment and said “papa I thought about it and i will” he pats my cheek gently and kisses my forehead and mumma does the same

“I’m so sorry you have to do this ishra”  mumma says softly and I shake my head sipping her tears giving her a smile

Mr khan had been staring at me the whole time his expression unreadable, I hate it when I can’t tell what someone is thinking ughh! Soon him and his family left the room along with my parents

My brothers, bhabi and Trisha stayed in the room. Zahir bhai and aarav bahi came towards me and hugged me

“Humare ishu kitni bari ho gayi hain” bhabi said and walked towards me, after my brother let go of me she kisses my

forehead

"Ishu if you don't want to then don't, we're always with you" Zahir bhai says but i know what's going to happen if I don't marry mr khan

"Bhai I am sure" I say and he nods, he knows if I'm set my mind to something then I'll do it, no one can change my mind

“I’ll go get the makeup artist” Trisha said and went out of the room, after some time she came back with the make up artist

My brothers and bhabi left as bhabi had to eat something to have her medicine While Trisha and aarav bhai stayed with me trying to cheer me up and comfort me

"Ishra" aarav bhai calls my name and I look at him, he makes me sit down on the chair and looks at me "are you actually sure about this, I know it's going to be hard" he says and I hug him

"Yes bhai I'm sure" I say and he pulls away from the hug

"Thank you ishu" he says to which I give him a smile " that smile should always be visible and if arnaaz isn't treating you well I want you to tell me and Zahir bhai" he says to him and I give him a thumbs up with a big smile, trying to cheer up his mood

Ever since I was young I’ve always been scared that I’ll fall for the wrong person and marry him and get married into a bad family

And here I don’t know how the guy I’m about to marry is like or how his family is like. I’ve since them in the news how they are an amazing family but not everything on the news is true

Ya Allah sab kuch theek kar do na

After some time I got ready, the lahenga looked amazing but there was a feeling inside me that made me feel this wasn’t for me and the real owner is di

But I guess not everything goes as planed…

It’s said that whatever happens, happens for a reason, in sha Allah that it’s true

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Right now I’m sitting next to mr khan while the imaam is sitting next to him and the imaam asks if I agree for the marriage

"Qubool hai" I said in a soft and quiet voice signing the marriage certificate and the imaam asks the same thing to him

"Qubool hai" he said in his usual voice which had no emotion to it